25 Years Ago

25 years ago Jim finally asked me to marry him. Finally. We had dated for over 2 years. I knew just 2wks in that he was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. He was the one I want to marry & have children with. It took him a lil longer be ready for that commitment. But it all worked out in God's perfect timing.

Tonight I watched the city fireworks. They had been postponed to tonight due to rain. It just seemed perfect. Jim loved fireworks. My heart didn't ache like other years. I felt held. Content. Maybe it is because the boys are grown. Many fears have been slain. I can see how God fathered them. 
Don't get me wrong. I miss Jim. A part of me always will. Tears still fall sometimes. 

But I remember when my 10th wedding anniversary came and how raw I felt. 
I can see how much healing has come since then. 
The Lord is good & faithful.
He is the Lover of my soul and the Healer of my heart. 
The Best Friend Who walks beside me and guides me on this life's adventure.  

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